Day 244 – The giant mistake
In spite of my sunny looking attire I am in a foul and agitated mood. After a series of rows with my family last night i arrived at home to find the giant in an equally foul mood. A lot of the drama all stems from the fact that it was my mummy’s birthday and though I tried to make it special everyone was a bit too tardy or lazy to do so.
Much of the rows occurred because of a particuarly pricey cheesecake I brought to the restaurant and the bottle of sparkling wine we got for the table to celebrate the occassion. After all the fall out of last night, two family members stormed out of the restaurant, I was ready for an easy day but arrived at my home this morning to find the giant in a bit of a mood.
There is a thing that the giant did several years back, a mistake that he made that hurt me and years on I still struggle to gel with him and every now and again a fight occurs.
It is perhaps because we are so similar that the arguments we tend to have are so explosive. After our latest fight, I walked out of my house vowing to never speak to him again, taking the cheesecake and leaving the money on the table to cover the cost of the meal disaster.
I feel as though I am very alone at the moment, my family do not seem to understand me and things with the boy are on a knife edge. i worry that my thoughts, my voice, everything is all happening so quickly and I am struggling to keep a check on my emotions.
The giant can be a fool, but I wonder if I have made a mistake by throwing him from my life.
