Day 359 – A Christmas wish come true
I had got to the stage this year that I had thought that there was simply no chance that I would be spending Christmas with my family. In my head my Christmas dinner was booked in at the Brandon Unit and I could see no other alternative when the thoughts were so bad and my mood was so low.
Things have improved, of that there is no question and here I am today at home with my family just the way that Christmas should be. Admittedly my gift giving was far more frugal than years gone by as I have been finding leaving the house such a struggle.
Though I struggled during the day with a low mood my family were on hand to give me a boost and my sister who is now pregnant came upstairs to lie with me and have a hug when things got a bit tough.
As we all sat around the table to eat it struck me that when I was high I had turned my back on every single member of my family. They have stuck by me in spite of all the drama and tolerated the demon that I became with a love that was unconditional.
If it were not for my family sticking by me, I have no doubt that I would have been in hospital today. One of the saddest things about the ward was that there were some people there who did not get visitors. My own visitors were so persistent that even on the days where I would have happily lay in bed with the curtains closed they came regardless and dragged me from my thoughts if only for five minutes.
Once I am well I am determined that I will find a way of visiting the place and putting on a pub quiz. It will not be much but will be my way of giving something back to the ward which saved my life on so many occasions and without which I would not have made it to today’s celebrations.
sheboyganvet@yahoo.com said,
March 22, 2011 at 7:38 pm
Have you been tested for Celiac Sprue? I believe the British spell it differently, but it is still the same insidious pretender. Its’ symptoms are quite often unexplained severe depression.
lostinnotation said,
March 24, 2011 at 3:28 am
No I haven’t but I’ll ask about it? What is it exactly
sheboyganvet@yahoo.com said,
March 24, 2011 at 11:44 am
The common spelling for it in Britain is, Coeliac. I think if you Google it you will get a far better explanation than I could give. Prepare to be overwhelmed by the amount of information available. One in 133 people have this syndrome. It is genetic, ie., not something you “get”. My wife was diagnosed over twenty years ago and is doing quite well on a gluten free diet.
I did take the liberty of putting an article link on your facebook page.
Bob Schmidt